The Video Girl

1anotherlostsoul1:

Remember when everyone wanted to see me fail? When my mom was telling me I should take my life because grandma died? And it’s all my fault right? Remember when mom and dad were arguing all the time and it was always my fault? Or how about all those times Maddison called me mommy? When Joey needed someone to change his shitty diapers? How about when you needed that phone or someone to torture? Or when she wanted to steal cars and we went to jail? How about when I dropped out of high school, maintained a 3.0 gpa that dropped to a 0, yet I still went back and graduated? Remember when she wanted to get married at a young age? Or when I bought those Christmas gifts for her? When he needed me to listen to him cry or take those pills away or save his life a dozen times? Then he left me stranded? Remember when aunt moved and took all I had left of my Grammy? Or when she let that pervert move in with us? Remember all those times I helped out or failed and came back on top? Watch me glo up. I don’t need anyone’s help . Bye.

I’m so done tumblr.. my wife at her finest y’all… this is what I married … forever alone forever a lost soul I’m just floating at this point… trying to make sense of it all… wtf is going on in my life I wanna kill myself

Tumblr is my only source of venting I feel everyone is against me everywhere else

Leaving my wife today

Mfs been treating me like I ain’t shit at home. Straight told me I had no say so in our home and not to talk to their kids (my step kids by marriage) anymore. We come to Chicago and mfs wanna have an attitude cause I won’t watch they kids for them. I’m not a parent then I’m not a babysitter either tf . Bitch bye this yo city find a mf babysitter so we can both go out or we both finna sit in this mf together with YOUR kids

The person in the first picture is not the same person as the second picture and I mean that in the most humble way possible

The girl in the plaid shirt was my girlfriend/fiancé at the time. Now I never really was in love with her. She really loved me though. She cooked for me and ran my bath water. She really didn’t deserve what I did to her. I played her so many times. Really needed a place to stay when I got out of jail. . Anyway. Besides the point. Uhm the other girl… well if you know , you know. I loved her. She was my ex girlfriend. Someone who I called my best friend. I used to sit on the phone for hours with her. Til the sun came up. And well, my girlfriend (in the plaid) didn’t like it so much. My girlfriend’s mom, uhm she had money. And uh this was my birthday trip…. I asked to see the St. Louis Cardinals. My girlfriend (plaid) hated me at the moment because she knew better… as soon as we got to the hotel room I called my ex. Her mom let me drop her off at a casino down the road. I used her car to pick this girl up. I had every intention on spending the night with my ex … she was my best friend. I didn’t have to sleep with her to know that. I just wanted her in my presence. And damn she wanted to be in mine. At least back then she did. I met her here. On Tumblr. Maybe that’s why I give y’all an update on my relationships all the time. You know what though? The same shit is gonna keep happening to me no matter what sign the person is because of this girl right here. My ex. Every relationship I’ve been in since all I can think is the other person is still in love with their ex. And I keep getting screwed over time and time again. Because of this mentality. I have to stop this vicious cycle. I’m no longer in love with this woman… I’m in love with my wife. And if I keep this up I will lose her. Please help me, Lord.

My wedding

It’s gonna be amazing . I love this girl. I love how even though we argue we always make up. She’s my best friend and I hate when she’s mad at me. I learn something new about her it seems like every day. I observe her, but sometimes I can’t control how I think and the wrong things come out of my mouth or the right things come out just in the wrong way. So in a way I’m learning about myself too. In such ways I never have before. I’ve had this blog for over 6 years and I’ve posted about every single relationship I’ve ever had… I don’t get on much anymore, kinda outgrew it, however if anyone cares to know, I’m getting married. And it’s gonna be amazing !!! I’m marrying my best friend. I know I get on her nerves, she gets on mines too but I wouldn’t trade her for the world. I’m scared of losing her . Genuinely, everyone else., was so easy to lose/leave. But her. I can’t do it …

see… fine. 🥵😫🤣